The Vanity of Blogging

I just read a thoughtful post HERE that made me think again about my love/hate relationship with blogging.  I want to write.  I love to write. I write constantly in my head.  I tell myself that I want blogging to be no different than the scratchings and scribblings I have made in notebooks and on napkins all my life… but the fact is that it IS different.  I know that it is, and it colors every key that I press as I type.

The difference is that I know there is a very real possibility that when I blog, Someone Else will be reading it.  And even though I have no idea who those Someone Elses might be, and even though I may not know them at all, I feel some sort of responsibility to cater to them.  Why is that?  Why do I feel that I must please this faceless person or persons who happen upon my tiny sliver of the Internet?  It’s a curious thing, and I don’t understand it.  It is one thing to ponder and re-edit for hours simply because I am crystallizing my thoughts to make them more clear, but it is quite another to do it for the purpose of pleasing an unknown audience.  Why do I care?  It bothers me.

And there is also the issue of What To Write.  I’ve been told that a blog should stay focused on one particular theme, and like an obedient automaton, I went through a phase of trying to do that.  But why?  Who sets the rules?  It’s not as if I am trying to build a business or sell a book or run an advice column.  I set this up as a place to park my thoughts, and that’s all.  I want it to be my rambling stream of consciousness, not a stage on which I perform.

Not sure it can ever be that, but since I miss writing, I’m going to give it a try.

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About dayuntoday

I'm a wonderer. I spend a lot of time mulling, pondering, and cogitating. This is just a place to park some of those thoughts.
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