I realized something else about denying self this morning that I hadn’t thought of before.
Sometimes I have to deny my hurt feelings. When I nurture my hurts and hide behind them, refusing to come out and live normally, I’m hugging that bitterness to me, using it as a shield between me and the world.
It’s only normal to take offense at words that sting or snub, but when I rehearse them over and over to myself and keep reviving the feelings of being slighted or slandered, I am letting my Self get too much airtime.
Okay, yes, it hurt, but there’s no need for a constant replay. I need to acknowledge that it hurt, then give that hurt to God and let Him keep it. I don’t need to keep reliving it. I don’t need to keep telling it to my friends. I need to let go of it and get it out of my way. I have a life to live, and hurt feelings are just one more way to focus on ME rather than staying focused on God and living for Him.
~~Here you go, Abba. You can keep these for me…