Oh, blah. I woke up icky today. Just oppressed and grumpy for no particular reason.
Does anyone else not really like Christmas? I know that sounds terrible, but I just find it overwhelming. I hate to shop, so gift-buying really isn’t fun (though shopping online helps that a lot) and it stresses our budget terribly, so every purchase is a bit of a wrench. I also feel like I need to be doing all those neat extra things that make memories, and all those neat extra things take so much energy!
This year I have done almost nothing so far. We usually do an Advent reading of some sort–this year I didn’t even get out the wreath or buy candles. Finally got out the nativities a few days ago. Haven’t baked anything–I haven’t even started on the gingerbread house. I have done practically no shopping. Haven’t started Christmas cards/letters and I’m not gonna until this family gets some sort of a picture to put in it.
I know that lots of this stems from the fact that our family is growing up and suddenly it’s much harder to get everyone together for readings in the evening or for a picture, it’s harder to schedule time to go shopping. I don’t adapt well, I guess.
And right now I need to be getting ready for company this weekend, but all I really want to do is sit by the fire and do NOTHING. I also have laundry that must be done and a bunch of turkey that I need to chop and put in the freezer, and food that needs to be fixed for the weekend, not to mention kids that need yanked out of bed and schooled. It’s so easy to let them sleep all day when I feel like this. Yikes, it’s past nine. Gotta get in gear!
edited to add: I just visited namamekashii and was reminded that Christmas is not about me–it’s all about Jesus!! I’m sorry to be negative–pray that I can keep that in the forefront!